"Well I was thinking as I often do and realise so much has changed lately. I really no longer consider my journey a weightloss one
I love being normal with food too. I never think about what I am eating. I no longer spend hours obsessing about food. I don't spend ages contemplating what I should and shouldn't eat. I've learnt the difference between hunger and thirst, starving and craving. Even when I am hugely stressed I eat whatever I fancy, yep a couple of times its been crisps and biccies but I always stop when full and only eat when hungry, so even these episodes do no harm as I end up not hungry for my meal too. I cannot eat when not hungry as I don't even think to
Then of course theres the exercise. This lady who was allergic to exercise
Today I had the confidence to walk up the school in my exercise gear
Today I had a really confident smile on my face just walking up the school. It was a 'real smile' I realised I was happy with who I am
I had a houseful of gas men yesterday. I'd normally be an anxious wreck. They were all nattering to me and joking with me. I just chatted and joked back
So much is changing I sometimes feel I can't keep up, but I love it. These pods have handed me back a life thats for living. Of course, I had a life. I've always had a lovely lovely family and lovely lovely friends but this is different. This has made me see life in a different light. Its made me value my family, value my true friends, love life
Sandra has done so much for me. Shes changes lives. I am proof of that
Ok ladies so some positives
Really they are all above aren't they? so all above
I am happy
I am more confident
I have a real smile
I love life
I enjoy exercise
I've managed 107 miles in May and today is not over yet
I don't think about food. Food is fuel thats it. I enjoy food but it doesn't worry me at all
My journey is not about weightloss anymore
I am making my Dad proud
I stop eating as soon as full no matter what the food is
I've done 3 boosted miles this morning and could have done more but need to work
I was asked what I wanted for my birthday from Matt. I am having a bright pink exercise vest
I have this lovely inner calm and acceptance
The scales no longer rule my life - I don't need them to judge me, to tell me how well I am doing, or how badly because they no longer matter to me, as I can feel how well I am doing, it comes from within "
Jackie you are a different person from the one who spoke to me about anxiety just answering the phone!! Its fantastic that you've made such amazing changes, and i know you thank the pods and Sandra, but credit where credit s due, the pods wouldn't have been able to do anything for you had you not stuck it out and worked with them. You could have quite easily have listened to the pods but fought against them, remaining in that awful place you were to start with! Well done my lovely - a truly amazing change! xx
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