Normal Around Food! woohoo!

Well as the title says this has been my first Christmas normal around food. I simply ate when hungry stopped when full!

This felt amazing. I didn't scoff everything possible just because I could. There are tonnes of goodies about and tonnes left as I simply had a few choccies when I fancied them. Thats it :)

I had to leave over 1/3rd of my Christmas dinner as heard the full signal. I didn't obsess about food once. It was just food. It was yummy and I enjoyed it but not worrying should I have this, can I have this, Do I want this was more how it went :)

I didn't weigh once and still haven't. My relationship with my scales has ended. It took me a year but they no longer call me, I am no  longer tempted and I no longer feel the need to weigh. :) It really is liberating.

The best thing for me was my control around food. Also the fact no diet planned for the New Year, no wagon to fall off, no gain to lose, no panic at what i've gained over Christmas . I have finally broken some of the biggest habits I had :)

My goals are set working away in the background. I simply continue to pod and find my positives, thats it.

I had confidence this year. I was calm this year. I felt positive this year. I was normal around food this year!

What more could a girl wish for?

A quick reflection on the past year :)

Well what a year to reflect on

I mean where would one start??

This time last year I'd been binge free for one week

I was weighing at least twice a day and always weighed after a pig out or naughty food letting the scales determine my mood for the day or even the week

I'd weigh , then keep going for a wee to see if I'd lost an extra 1lb LOL

I was writing down every morsel that touched my lips. (diet head)

I was buying 'good' foods or 'diet foods' or 'low fat foods' (diet head)

I couldn't go swimming

I hated and had a real fear of driving (and swimming)

I had no confidence

I hated me

I was obsessed with food.

I didn't hear the full signal I was convinced i didn't have one

I wasn't doing my positives and goals properly in fact I was floundering, why ? Because the scales said I was a failure

So alot has changed

I've lost my diet head

Food is now food - simple

I eat when hungry and stop when full often leaving food on my plate

I eat what I fancy and I'm happy to say 90% of the time I make the healthy choice as its what I fancy

I no longer beat myself up when I do eat ie choccie, crisps a mince pie I eat it and savour it

I taste food for the first time in my life

I realise by tasting food I don't like some of my old favourite foods I guess when I used to shove it down it didn't hit the sides so I didn't taste it

I am one of the calmest Mums on the playground rather than a raving stress head

I am a really positive person

I can now see other peoples issues really are theirs not mine

I have confidence

I don't buy low fat, diet foods, I buy food

I enjoy my food

I have a healthy relationship with food

I have a full signal and it works very well indeed

I enjoy the exercise that I do

I won't be starting a diet in January - I will never diet again because I don't need to anymore. The inches will continue to melt away slowly.

I've got this far without an eating plan I promised myself I would and I have its quite liberating actually

I have no wagon to fall off

I have no plan to be off or on

I haven't weighed for ages and the scales no longer call me. I am at peace with them. They are a number, a number that no longer bothers or worries me as I have changed. I don't need them to sell me if I've failed or succeeded anymore. this took a whole year but I am finally there

If I stay this way thats fine I like it. I can eat when I am hungry. I know what hunger is. I know what thirst is... I can finally tell the difference that full signal kicks in and I simply cannot eat another mouthful. Its like a cut off, a zip, I hear it, I stop. I love this again this has taken me just over a year but I no longer listen for it, or look for it, I've found it

I have made some truely amazing friends on this journey. Ones that have stood by me and backed me even when they are following eating plans etc. They've seen me change. They've seen old mouse Jackie slowly melt into the back ground. Shes gone now but my friends are still with me sharing my journey even though i've not been on here every day to offer them support still. Thats what I call true friends. I've learnt what true friendship is, and I like it

You've picked me up when I hit rock bottom. You've listened to my pod ponderings and diet head squeals. But I am finally in a good place. The spaghetti in my head is all untangled.


Last but not least I am at peace with myself. I have lumps and bumps. I still have a large ass and belly but its shrinking and slowly my skin is tightening and I know it will go. It will take time but no hurry I'm not racing anyone I'm simply living my life and getting on with it.

So thank you all each and every one of you have played a big part in this journey. I took the scenic route but I got there . Yes I'm still a size 18 and I've a way to go but I'll get there will it be 2013??? We'll see won't we xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

A year binge free!

Yes this time last year I had my last binge!  A whole year binge free! I am no longer able to binge I simply eat when hungry and stop when full! Eating what I fancy. Its so liberating. I've even ditched the scales. What a difference a year can make!

14 months ago I was a binge eater. I grazed all day. I was allergic to exercise. I was a chocoholic (seriously) and I had zero confidence.

Today I have dropped 4 dress sizes, losing 61 inches and I exercise daily. :) Nothing high impact just walking or my beloved TTapp workout.  This whole experience has been life changing for me.

I still like chocolate but it tends to be hormone related rather than every day. So a couple of times a month I eat chocolate the rest of the time it simply doesn't bother me at all.

I used to be eating all day. Food was all I thought about. Now I simply eat when hungry and stop when full. Some days I eat more than others, some days I am not hungry until lunch time. I have a normal relationship with food and its liberating it really is. No foods are banned. There are no good and bad foods as in diet head, its simply food. Love it! I find I eat healthily most of the time because I want to but I don't beat myself up if I have cake or a biccie or a McDonalds, I just have it :)

Food is no longer at the forefront of my mind its at the back.! I never thought I'd say that. Everyone tells me how much better I look and I can tell you I feel much better. I have more energy, I walk tall, I have a real smile, I have confidence, I can chat to people I've not met before, I can natter on the phone! Its brilliant.

I used to secretly eat and hide the evidence. I struggled to walk down town and back as I was so out of puff. I used to have asthma. I've only used my puffer once in 14 months. And that was yesterday when I felt I had a cold coming. Today I don't need it again :)

I couldn't shop in normal shops as nothing fit me. Now being a size 18 I can shop in most shops and it still shocks me that I can and that most 18's fit me and I'm not constantly being disappointed and having to take stuff back or shove it in a wardrobe with other clothes that don't fit. I now wear clothes I love rather than clothes I simply buy because they fit! In fact over the weekend I am going to dejunk that wardrobe and only keep the clothes I love. I am never going to wear something again just because it fits!

Christimas is nearly here

Your chance to try out slimpods for free.  Here is a link to the Thinking Slimmer Christmas Slimpod to help you maintain over the festive period.

As you know I love the slimpods and have and continue to have great success with them

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THINKING SLIMMER’S

CHRISTMAS SLIMPOD

Instead of over-indulging at Christmas, try our revolutionary new approach: This Christmas

Slimpod will gently retune your mind so you eat and drink a little less over the festive period,

helping to keep your weight and your waistline under control.

And yet you won't feel deprived and you won't think you're missing out. Simply listen to your

free Christmas Slimpod for 10 minutes every day in the run-up to Christmas so the changes

can begin to work, and then keep listening until the New Year holiday period is over.

You won't necessarily lose weight with this special Christmas Slimpod - you just won't eat as

much as last year! But you'll definitely enjoy yourself more without the worry or the guilt.