"Well I was thinking as I often do and realise so much has changed lately. I really no longer consider my journey a weightloss one









I love being normal with food too. I never think about what I am eating. I no longer spend hours obsessing about food. I don't spend ages contemplating what I should and shouldn't eat. I've learnt the difference between hunger and thirst, starving and craving. Even when I am hugely stressed I eat whatever I fancy, yep a couple of times its been crisps and biccies but I always stop when full and only eat when hungry, so even these episodes do no harm as I end up not hungry for my meal too. I cannot eat when not hungry as I don't even think to


Then of course theres the exercise. This lady who was allergic to exercise





Today I had the confidence to walk up the school in my exercise gear


Today I had a really confident smile on my face just walking up the school. It was a 'real smile' I realised I was happy with who I am

I had a houseful of gas men yesterday. I'd normally be an anxious wreck. They were all nattering to me and joking with me. I just chatted and joked back





So much is changing I sometimes feel I can't keep up, but I love it. These pods have handed me back a life thats for living. Of course, I had a life. I've always had a lovely lovely family and lovely lovely friends but this is different. This has made me see life in a different light. Its made me value my family, value my true friends, love life



Sandra has done so much for me. Shes changes lives. I am proof of that




Ok ladies so some positives
Really they are all above aren't they? so all above
I am happy
I am more confident
I have a real smile
I love life
I enjoy exercise
I've managed 107 miles in May and today is not over yet

I don't think about food. Food is fuel thats it. I enjoy food but it doesn't worry me at all
My journey is not about weightloss anymore


I am making my Dad proud

I stop eating as soon as full no matter what the food is
I've done 3 boosted miles this morning and could have done more but need to work

I was asked what I wanted for my birthday from Matt. I am having a bright pink exercise vest

I have this lovely inner calm and acceptance
The scales no longer rule my life - I don't need them to judge me, to tell me how well I am doing, or how badly because they no longer matter to me, as I can feel how well I am doing, it comes from within "