Well Easter is here and I managed 176 miles outof 200. I worked it out that had I not got hurt and had 8 days of no exercise recovering I would have easily managed the 200 miles. :) I am really pleased with that.
I am going to continue the exercise and log my miles achieved each month :)
This couch potato really enjoys the walking and the walking DVDs :)
Talking of Easter - well chocolate :) I started listening to the Chunky Chocolate Cure http://www.thinkingslimmer.com/Users/Ecommerce/ProductDetails.aspx?pid=91&catid=15
back at the end of October.... Does it work? YES IT DOES!
I had real issues with chocolate and could eat my weight in it ! I went from eating loads, to eating a little, then only eating it when I was due 'time of the month' to not really eating it at all.
This time last year I was replacing and buying Easter Eggs that I'd bought for the kids daily! Flat packing the boxes and hiding them to put out for recycling when nobody was looking :( I still find the odd flat packed box now! This year every egg I bought is still there!
I've just been making cadburys rice crispy cakes with mini malteesers bunnies. I ate 3 squares of chocolate and that was plenty and to be honest I didn't enjoy it. I think I tried it just to see as not had chocolate since mid February! woohoo!
Sweet Tooth Pod - http://www.thinkingslimmer.com/Users/Ecommerce/ProductDetails.aspx?pid=161&catid=15
This has helped me too. I was often really craving something sweet after my tea. I no longer get this. In fact I just don't eat anything sweet anymore as I don't fancy it. I have only been listening to this pod since 22nd March! I have even not bothered with the yoghurts I was having as they are now too sweet! I haven't touched biscuits, cake, anything sweet, and I had a sip of coke the other day and yack yack yack so sickly. I am really pleased with the effects of this pod as now if I do snack which is mega rare its on fruit.
My diet head no longer makes an appearance :) It has been replaced very much with a 'think about what goes in your mouth head'!! Its hard to explain but rather than food being a comfort, a consolation, a treat, its now fuel. Thats it! I can't actually believe I am writing this. Each meal time I really consider what I'd like to eat. This lunchtime my hubby text to say popping into the chip shop what would you like? My reply 'nothing don't fancy it' (eek) I really didn't want it. I've noticed I no longer hanker over a McDonalds either. Its the thought of the grease :( yack yack yack. So while they ate the chips I had a jacket potato, tiny bit of grated cheese, 4 tiny bits of pepperoni, and a sweet and sour mughshot. I even left some as was full.
At breakfast I fancied porridge so had a plain Oatso Simple, milk, 1 tsp of golden syrup (well a squidge out of the bottle) and a handful of frozen raspberries mixed in :)
Talking of full - goodness I hear that full signal loud and clear now and I listen! I cannot bear that over full feeling anymore :)
I have also realised that most of the time when I thought I was hungry I was likely to be thirsty and I drink far more water, tea etc than I used to. I also realised that I really was an emotional eater. I mean, I consoled myself with food, treated myself with food, made myself feel better with food, everything was about food! at first I found it hard when I didn't want to turn to food if stressed or upset etc as just didn't know what to do with myself but that quickly passed and I now eat food when I am hungry, just like we are supposed to :)
I almost feel like taking a photo of my old food habits in a day and my new ones. You know like they used to on 'you are what you eat!' The difference is unreal. In fact I hardly remember what the old me used to eat. I've moved on so much.
I always said no matter what happened I'd give the slimpod 6 months to prove itself. Well just over 5 months in I feel it really has. I can't wait to see what happens and what I achieve over the next 6 months. Its really quite exciting.
Do I recommened them? YES I DO!
The customer service is second to none. They really care. All they want is for us to succeed.
I can't tell you how liberating it is to know I will never diet again. No good and bad foods. No falling off the wagon and trying to claw it back before the dreaded weigh day! I can laugh at this now but it was obsessive and such a negative cycle really. ie weigh day, hardly eat as it might make a 1lb difference. Get weighed and binge on all the norty foods, after all it was treat day , weigh day, then of course the following day, so hard to get back on that wagon after a binge, so it would continue into the next day and the next, then suddenly on day 3 I would wake up and think 'OMG its weigh day on..... how can I limit the damage?' so I'd try to eat very little, be healthy, to claw it back, then weigh day arrives and the cycle begins again. Do I miss all this ? NO I DO NOT!
I have no wagon to fall off. I no longer binge. I no longer crave refined rubbish! The pods have totally changed how I feel about food. Whoever thought a binger could sit and say 'food is food' simply that 'food'? (eek) But thats what it is now! I've been known on the odd occassion to forget breakfast as busy or not hungry, or to get to 2.30 and realise I've not had my lunch. This would have been unheard of in the past, I mean food was at the forefront of my mind, I thought about it every second of the day.
Think i've waffled enough, but I seriously feel amazing . My head is in the right place now, just need my scales and my body to catch up with me!
I went from
Saturday, 7 April 2012
Tuesday, 3 April 2012
list of positives - 5 months in
1. I smile more
2. I feel positive
3. I am calmer
4. I am happier
5. I no longer obsess about food
6. I can no longer eat junk food. don't want to
7. I no longer want or can eat greasy food
8. I can't bare the smell of greasy food cooking
9. Not eaten choccie since 14/2/12
10. I am no longer interested in sweet stuff ie cakes, biccies
11. I leave food on my plate
12. I make healthy choices
13. I enjoy the exercise I do
14. My confidence returns daily
15. I no longer emotionally turn to food, ie tired, stressed, upset
16. no longer graze all day
17. no longer keep thinking what I fancy to eat all day
18. Can really see my shape changing
19. lost lots from my face
20.I have a waist
21. I like myself
22. I no longer let people get to me
23. no panic attacks
24. no anxiety generally
25. coping better with many situations
26. driving a little
27. no longer self sabbotage
28 no guilt around food
29 often forget about food.meals until hungry
30 have learnt to say no
31 have no time for negativity
32 I am no longer controlled emotionally by what the scales say
33 I hear the full signal loud and clear
34 not touched any easter eggs
35 less retail therapy
36 no longer eat leftovers from kids plates or snack while cooking serving up
37 no palpitations anymore
38 not as emotional
39 don't feel drained all the time
40 rings are really really loose
41 no longer snack on crisps since before xmas
42 apologised to Debbie and we now see each other regularly for coffee
43 resisting hot cross buns
44 Sainsburys driver didn't recognise me
45 people at school noticing the changes
46 no longer rebelling
47 was in the March newsletter
48 no asthma
49 no longer make up excuses not to take Carla
50 managed a social vet visit with Carla and spoke my mind
51 starting to declutter
52 feel really focused and in the zone
53 first ever period/star week with no choccie or sweet cravings
54 not got a taxi from town in weeks
55 My diet head has gone forever
56 I no longer analyse everything
57 I no longer binge
phew what a list
2. I feel positive
3. I am calmer
4. I am happier
5. I no longer obsess about food
6. I can no longer eat junk food. don't want to
7. I no longer want or can eat greasy food
8. I can't bare the smell of greasy food cooking
9. Not eaten choccie since 14/2/12
10. I am no longer interested in sweet stuff ie cakes, biccies
11. I leave food on my plate
12. I make healthy choices
13. I enjoy the exercise I do
14. My confidence returns daily
15. I no longer emotionally turn to food, ie tired, stressed, upset
16. no longer graze all day
17. no longer keep thinking what I fancy to eat all day
18. Can really see my shape changing
19. lost lots from my face
20.I have a waist
21. I like myself
22. I no longer let people get to me
23. no panic attacks
24. no anxiety generally
25. coping better with many situations
26. driving a little
27. no longer self sabbotage
28 no guilt around food
29 often forget about food.meals until hungry
30 have learnt to say no
31 have no time for negativity
32 I am no longer controlled emotionally by what the scales say
33 I hear the full signal loud and clear
34 not touched any easter eggs
35 less retail therapy
36 no longer eat leftovers from kids plates or snack while cooking serving up
37 no palpitations anymore
38 not as emotional
39 don't feel drained all the time
40 rings are really really loose
41 no longer snack on crisps since before xmas
42 apologised to Debbie and we now see each other regularly for coffee
43 resisting hot cross buns
44 Sainsburys driver didn't recognise me
45 people at school noticing the changes
46 no longer rebelling
47 was in the March newsletter
48 no asthma
49 no longer make up excuses not to take Carla
50 managed a social vet visit with Carla and spoke my mind
51 starting to declutter
52 feel really focused and in the zone
53 first ever period/star week with no choccie or sweet cravings
54 not got a taxi from town in weeks
55 My diet head has gone forever
56 I no longer analyse everything
57 I no longer binge
phew what a list
Still seeing changes
Still seeing changes almost daily at the moment.
My eating habits just get better and better. I am chosing the healthy option all the time at the moment.
Just made homemade lentil and bacon soup for lunch and had it with a small seeded chese and pickle sandwich. I forgot to have breakfast as I was busy and was not hungry (eek).
I am no longer snacking at all. Just don't thnk about it. If still hungry after lunch I have a bananna or some grapes.
I am cooking most meals from scratch and thoroughly enjoying it. Last night was chicken and chorizo paella, a friend's recipe and its absolutely delicious.
I feel the positivity oozing from me. I am leaving food on my plate especially at main meal, even when they are favourite foods.
There is temptation all around me this week, cadburys easter eggs, galaxy chocolate, crisps, cookies, and I can honestly say they no longer interest me :)
I have to say this is the most amazing feeling I've ever had. I feel like everything has finally clicked into place. Yes I took the scenic route, fought the pods, rebelled against them, but I finally feel I've come out the other side, not only healthier, but happier.
I feel my head is so in the right place. Its an amazing place to be. I am eating the healthiest I've ever eaten and the most wonderful part of this is that I am chosing to. I don't have to, I'm not following an eating plan I eat this way because its what I fancy :)
I am so enjoying the walking and will continue it after lent. My first challenge is to walk 80 miles in April. I am pretty confident I will do this easily but didn't want to set the limit too high and fail. If I manage this easily I will up the mileage for May :)
I am not touching rubbish foods. I no longer have a craving for them. Even when the rest of the family chose the unhealthy option it does not tempt me.
I feel in such a good place, its so liberating, so exciting. I can't wait to see what happens over this next few months :)
My eating habits just get better and better. I am chosing the healthy option all the time at the moment.
Just made homemade lentil and bacon soup for lunch and had it with a small seeded chese and pickle sandwich. I forgot to have breakfast as I was busy and was not hungry (eek).
I am no longer snacking at all. Just don't thnk about it. If still hungry after lunch I have a bananna or some grapes.
I am cooking most meals from scratch and thoroughly enjoying it. Last night was chicken and chorizo paella, a friend's recipe and its absolutely delicious.
I feel the positivity oozing from me. I am leaving food on my plate especially at main meal, even when they are favourite foods.
There is temptation all around me this week, cadburys easter eggs, galaxy chocolate, crisps, cookies, and I can honestly say they no longer interest me :)
I have to say this is the most amazing feeling I've ever had. I feel like everything has finally clicked into place. Yes I took the scenic route, fought the pods, rebelled against them, but I finally feel I've come out the other side, not only healthier, but happier.
I feel my head is so in the right place. Its an amazing place to be. I am eating the healthiest I've ever eaten and the most wonderful part of this is that I am chosing to. I don't have to, I'm not following an eating plan I eat this way because its what I fancy :)
I am so enjoying the walking and will continue it after lent. My first challenge is to walk 80 miles in April. I am pretty confident I will do this easily but didn't want to set the limit too high and fail. If I manage this easily I will up the mileage for May :)
I am not touching rubbish foods. I no longer have a craving for them. Even when the rest of the family chose the unhealthy option it does not tempt me.
I feel in such a good place, its so liberating, so exciting. I can't wait to see what happens over this next few months :)
RECIPES
Thought I'd add some of my favourites as I think of them
Fishcakes
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mashed potato
cooked flaked smoked haddock
1 tsp fresh parsley finely chopped
1/2 tsp chilli (optional)
1 knorr vegetable stock pot
precooked cous cous
beaten egg
mix the mash (I mashed with the knorr stock cube no butter), flaked fish, parsley, and chilli, together
coat with beaten egg
roll in the precooked cous cous
bake on 180c for around 20 mins until warmed through
Chips
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Chip potatoes (I leave skins on)
put 1 desertspoon of olive oil into a roasting tin
crumble one knorr chicken stock cube into the tin
Toss the chipped potatoes in this mix to coat them. Bake on 200c for around 10 mins, take out and recoat them with the mix which by now has melted a little
Put back in the oven for around 20 mins until cooked
even my kids eat these :) These are my favourite comfort food with a sweet and sour mugshot poured over the top :) you can make wedges, and roast potatoes the same way :) or even little diced potatoes. The olive oil can be replaced with frylight and works just as well
Chilli
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extra lean mince
1 red onion diced
1 green pepper diced
1 red pepper diced
2 carrots diced
chilli powder to taste
1 crushed garlic clove
2 oxo cube
2 tbsp of tomato puree
dry fry the mince in a frying pan
remove all fat
add diced onion, peppers, carrots, garlic and any other veggies you wish to include
dry fry for a few mins until onion softened
add water, chilli powder, oxo cube, puree, and water
Simmer and serve
Chicken Bacon Pasta Bake
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2-3 cooked chicken breasts
6 rashers cooked bacon all fat removed
1-2 garlic cloves
1 red onion finely diced
1 carton passatta
250g cooked pasta
grated cheese
cook garlic and onion until soft
mix chopped chicken breast, bacon, cooked pasta, garlic, onions, passatta, together in an oven proof dish, top with grated cheese and bake until warmed through and cheese melted :) I serve with veggies or salad even my kids love this.
Fishcakes
=======
mashed potato
cooked flaked smoked haddock
1 tsp fresh parsley finely chopped
1/2 tsp chilli (optional)
1 knorr vegetable stock pot
precooked cous cous
beaten egg
mix the mash (I mashed with the knorr stock cube no butter), flaked fish, parsley, and chilli, together
coat with beaten egg
roll in the precooked cous cous
bake on 180c for around 20 mins until warmed through
Chips
=====
Chip potatoes (I leave skins on)
put 1 desertspoon of olive oil into a roasting tin
crumble one knorr chicken stock cube into the tin
Toss the chipped potatoes in this mix to coat them. Bake on 200c for around 10 mins, take out and recoat them with the mix which by now has melted a little
Put back in the oven for around 20 mins until cooked
even my kids eat these :) These are my favourite comfort food with a sweet and sour mugshot poured over the top :) you can make wedges, and roast potatoes the same way :) or even little diced potatoes. The olive oil can be replaced with frylight and works just as well
Chilli
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extra lean mince
1 red onion diced
1 green pepper diced
1 red pepper diced
2 carrots diced
chilli powder to taste
1 crushed garlic clove
2 oxo cube
2 tbsp of tomato puree
dry fry the mince in a frying pan
remove all fat
add diced onion, peppers, carrots, garlic and any other veggies you wish to include
dry fry for a few mins until onion softened
add water, chilli powder, oxo cube, puree, and water
Simmer and serve
Chicken Bacon Pasta Bake
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2-3 cooked chicken breasts
6 rashers cooked bacon all fat removed
1-2 garlic cloves
1 red onion finely diced
1 carton passatta
250g cooked pasta
grated cheese
cook garlic and onion until soft
mix chopped chicken breast, bacon, cooked pasta, garlic, onions, passatta, together in an oven proof dish, top with grated cheese and bake until warmed through and cheese melted :) I serve with veggies or salad even my kids love this.
Friday, 30 March 2012
just a few comments
I am doing well with my 200 mile challenge all things considered. I am now at 147 miles with a few days to go until the 7th April. I may not quite make 200 especially due to the calf injury I had but I am doing well and really enjoying it. I feel I've achieved alot. :)
I am noticing lots and lots of little things lately. I am not as stressed. I leave food on my plate. I enjoy my exercise. I feel calmer and don't let things get to me anymore, it just washes over and I move on.
I am beginning to think more carefully what I put in my mouth. Before it was healthy but now its healthier and I seem to be making more of a conscious effort :) not sure that makes sense but I know what I mean.
I no longer crave or seem bothered by sweet foods :) the sweet tooth pod really is working. I seem back on grapes and banannas if I need a snack :) I've even not bothered with yoghurts this last few days possibly because the ones I have are rather sweet and thats what I used them for :)
I can easily do the Leslye Sansone 2 mile DVD whereas I used to struggle to do the 2 miles and feel awful afterwards, now I love it, the time goes quick and I feel so good afterwards.
There have been cadburys Easter Eggs in the house for while now and I am not in the least bit tempted or bothered. My chocoholic days are over ! No more flat packed easter egg boxes and replacing eaten eggs - now that feels good :D
I just generally feel so very good in myself, its like the longer I pod the better it gets :)
I am noticing lots and lots of little things lately. I am not as stressed. I leave food on my plate. I enjoy my exercise. I feel calmer and don't let things get to me anymore, it just washes over and I move on.
I am beginning to think more carefully what I put in my mouth. Before it was healthy but now its healthier and I seem to be making more of a conscious effort :) not sure that makes sense but I know what I mean.
I no longer crave or seem bothered by sweet foods :) the sweet tooth pod really is working. I seem back on grapes and banannas if I need a snack :) I've even not bothered with yoghurts this last few days possibly because the ones I have are rather sweet and thats what I used them for :)
I can easily do the Leslye Sansone 2 mile DVD whereas I used to struggle to do the 2 miles and feel awful afterwards, now I love it, the time goes quick and I feel so good afterwards.
There have been cadburys Easter Eggs in the house for while now and I am not in the least bit tempted or bothered. My chocoholic days are over ! No more flat packed easter egg boxes and replacing eaten eggs - now that feels good :D
I just generally feel so very good in myself, its like the longer I pod the better it gets :)
Wednesday, 28 March 2012
Feeling amazing :)
I want to record this so I've pinched this post from my diary on Minimins :) This is how i've felt for a couple of weeks now so thought I'd share with you.
How do I feel today? I really do feel so positive. I have no food issues, I don't binge, I feel calm, I feel happy, I feel so so so positive its oozing from me, I have more confidence that improves daily, I no longer need or crave choccie, I no longer like crisps, sweet stuff is not bothering me at all now, I just eat my meals and stop when full. My meals are based on sw as I love that way of cooking as its healthy but I do not follow the plan, no longer emotionally eat , or eat as tired, stressed, bored, I eat because I am hungry. I enjoy my exercise - I can now do the 2 miles of Lesley Sansone walk aerobics and that 2 miles goes quick as I enjoy it
, My head is totally in the right place, so I reckon the rest of my journey should be pretty good This week I really feel that sticking with the pods is paying off big time. Now if my scales would show all this too rather than just inches that would be even better but my theory is they have to soon don't they I am not bothered its laughable actually
This was the best thing that ever happened to me.
The sweet tooth pod - love it :) I was always a choccie girl (and crisps, and other rubbish) Choccie pod cured that. But I got in a little habit of fancying something sweet after a meal. It was such a strong feeling and I wanted to get rid of it as I didn't need anything most of the time. I never overate but I don't want a sweet tooth anymore. Well I got the sweet tooth pod on the 22nd March. Its kicked in really quickly, amazing pod. I no longer crave anything sweet. In fact I went to Waitrose last night for a few bits and pieces and nothing in the way of munchies jumped out at me. I had no temptation what so ever and the fab bit was that none of it bothered me anymore. I might as well have been browsing the potato isle (giggles) :) Another amazing pod from Thinking Slimmer. :)
Thank you Sandra, and thankyou Slimpod/Thinking Slimmer :) You are changing my life bit by bit :) Piece by Piece :)
How do I feel today? I really do feel so positive. I have no food issues, I don't binge, I feel calm, I feel happy, I feel so so so positive its oozing from me, I have more confidence that improves daily, I no longer need or crave choccie, I no longer like crisps, sweet stuff is not bothering me at all now, I just eat my meals and stop when full. My meals are based on sw as I love that way of cooking as its healthy but I do not follow the plan, no longer emotionally eat , or eat as tired, stressed, bored, I eat because I am hungry. I enjoy my exercise - I can now do the 2 miles of Lesley Sansone walk aerobics and that 2 miles goes quick as I enjoy it
, My head is totally in the right place, so I reckon the rest of my journey should be pretty good This week I really feel that sticking with the pods is paying off big time. Now if my scales would show all this too rather than just inches that would be even better but my theory is they have to soon don't they I am not bothered its laughable actually This was the best thing that ever happened to me.
The sweet tooth pod - love it :) I was always a choccie girl (and crisps, and other rubbish) Choccie pod cured that. But I got in a little habit of fancying something sweet after a meal. It was such a strong feeling and I wanted to get rid of it as I didn't need anything most of the time. I never overate but I don't want a sweet tooth anymore. Well I got the sweet tooth pod on the 22nd March. Its kicked in really quickly, amazing pod. I no longer crave anything sweet. In fact I went to Waitrose last night for a few bits and pieces and nothing in the way of munchies jumped out at me. I had no temptation what so ever and the fab bit was that none of it bothered me anymore. I might as well have been browsing the potato isle (giggles) :) Another amazing pod from Thinking Slimmer. :)
Thank you Sandra, and thankyou Slimpod/Thinking Slimmer :) You are changing my life bit by bit :) Piece by Piece :)
Saturday, 24 March 2012
more ponderings
This week has been a week of learning.
After I ate the 6 malteesers and put the packet back later that night I finished the pack just to see if I could. I guess testing the pods? Well I did finish them but I did not enjoy them, if that makes sense. I also ate a kinder buerno. Normally doing this would have resulted in a binge on rubbish ie eat that sugary food crave more. That day it did not :) In fact I learnt that it didn't bother me, it wasn't as yummy as I remembered it, so I learnt and moved on.
The following day I had two large waitrose cookies. They were yummy but you know they made me feel sicky and full and bloated and down. I got no kick out of eating them, I ate nothing after that, and learnt that sugary foods are not needed 'do it for me' anymore. Yes I could override the pods to a point BUT a) had to stop when full regardless of what the food was b)I still cannot binge :) this is amazing
This was me trying my utmost to self sabbotage. Lets face it I've perfected it and spent 20 years doing it lol, what I am trying to say is I no longer succeed :)
I am noticing my food is becoming healthier and healthier all the time, because I want it to be not because it has to be :) I am leaving food on my plate again more so must serve up smaller portions or the dog will get fat! I don't like that full feeling anymore. Someone lovely mentioned this yesterday that she didn't either and it reminded me that I didn't. I used to like the comfort of that 'overfull' feeling.. now I hate it :) So many little changes.
I truely feel I've learnt so much this week.
Today I got up. I felt bloated, fat and sad. Now in the past I'd have dwelled on this for days, bingeing, overeating, consoling myself with rubbish to make myself feel better. Today I had a shower and bleached the bath! Using that time to clear my mind, think things through. So how do I feel now? Fine :) Its done its dusted I'm not dwelling on it.
I want to declutter so today will the be the lounge. I am yet to do it but I plan to :)
Someone mentioned panic attacks yesterday and I thought 'oh my goodness, I've not had any!' how cool is that ? I hadn't realised hadn't noticed but looking back its been a while. I also used to feel so anxious about everything, shopping, walking, talking to people, vets, everything, you name it I found something to worry about and work myself up about, I haven't been doing this either :)
I truely believe for some of us theres such alot of 'head' stuff to sort out before the weight can come off. Afterall that weight has been our comfort for years. We've hidden behind it. IF it just fell off would we cope. I for one would not have done. I really feel these pods have cleansed my mind, built up my confidence, they are giving me other ways to cope with stuff, so in theory now the weight and sizes can go down as I no longer feel the need to comfort myself in this way :) Its like a weight has been lifted and all this clicked while I was bleaching the bath, sorting out my thoughts and it was like a lightbulb moment... I don't need to hide behind my blubber anymore I want to emerge from it and enjoy my life again. I CAN DO THIS!
I speak up for myself. Before I wouldn't have dreamt of doing so. I'd have wanted to fade into the back ground but not now I say no to things that I want to, I say if I don't agree with something, and I say if I don't want to do something. I also have a fear aggressive dog, its very hard to live with but in control at home and on walks but vets is a nightmare. This week we walked down there the main road way, coped well, went in, spent 40 mins there and I calmly told the vet how I felt, that I needed support, what I needed and she helped. In the past I'd have been a quivering wreck :) I left feeling I had achieved something and someone had listened to me and what I needed.
People are starting to notice my shape changing and my confidence. At first I still wanted to hide behind my big clothes and keep quiet but I don't seem to anymore. Its a good feeling.
I am feeling really focused and determined. I WILL DO THIS!
I am adding this on the end as this week is all about lessons learnt. A couple of weeks ago i bought a Greggs sausage roll. I took one bite and all I could taste was grease and seriously could not eat it.
Well today we've been busy all afternoon so had fish and chips. I had fish cake and chips. Again all I could taste was grease but they werent that greasy. I ate some and stopped, as it was just too much of a greasy taste. I was physically sick within 5 mins of eating it and now feel awful, my mouth feels and tastes likes I've chewed a block of lard... horrible, but OMG go slimpod!
After I ate the 6 malteesers and put the packet back later that night I finished the pack just to see if I could. I guess testing the pods? Well I did finish them but I did not enjoy them, if that makes sense. I also ate a kinder buerno. Normally doing this would have resulted in a binge on rubbish ie eat that sugary food crave more. That day it did not :) In fact I learnt that it didn't bother me, it wasn't as yummy as I remembered it, so I learnt and moved on.
The following day I had two large waitrose cookies. They were yummy but you know they made me feel sicky and full and bloated and down. I got no kick out of eating them, I ate nothing after that, and learnt that sugary foods are not needed 'do it for me' anymore. Yes I could override the pods to a point BUT a) had to stop when full regardless of what the food was b)I still cannot binge :) this is amazing
This was me trying my utmost to self sabbotage. Lets face it I've perfected it and spent 20 years doing it lol, what I am trying to say is I no longer succeed :)
I am noticing my food is becoming healthier and healthier all the time, because I want it to be not because it has to be :) I am leaving food on my plate again more so must serve up smaller portions or the dog will get fat! I don't like that full feeling anymore. Someone lovely mentioned this yesterday that she didn't either and it reminded me that I didn't. I used to like the comfort of that 'overfull' feeling.. now I hate it :) So many little changes.
I truely feel I've learnt so much this week.
Today I got up. I felt bloated, fat and sad. Now in the past I'd have dwelled on this for days, bingeing, overeating, consoling myself with rubbish to make myself feel better. Today I had a shower and bleached the bath! Using that time to clear my mind, think things through. So how do I feel now? Fine :) Its done its dusted I'm not dwelling on it.
I want to declutter so today will the be the lounge. I am yet to do it but I plan to :)
Someone mentioned panic attacks yesterday and I thought 'oh my goodness, I've not had any!' how cool is that ? I hadn't realised hadn't noticed but looking back its been a while. I also used to feel so anxious about everything, shopping, walking, talking to people, vets, everything, you name it I found something to worry about and work myself up about, I haven't been doing this either :)
I truely believe for some of us theres such alot of 'head' stuff to sort out before the weight can come off. Afterall that weight has been our comfort for years. We've hidden behind it. IF it just fell off would we cope. I for one would not have done. I really feel these pods have cleansed my mind, built up my confidence, they are giving me other ways to cope with stuff, so in theory now the weight and sizes can go down as I no longer feel the need to comfort myself in this way :) Its like a weight has been lifted and all this clicked while I was bleaching the bath, sorting out my thoughts and it was like a lightbulb moment... I don't need to hide behind my blubber anymore I want to emerge from it and enjoy my life again. I CAN DO THIS!
I speak up for myself. Before I wouldn't have dreamt of doing so. I'd have wanted to fade into the back ground but not now I say no to things that I want to, I say if I don't agree with something, and I say if I don't want to do something. I also have a fear aggressive dog, its very hard to live with but in control at home and on walks but vets is a nightmare. This week we walked down there the main road way, coped well, went in, spent 40 mins there and I calmly told the vet how I felt, that I needed support, what I needed and she helped. In the past I'd have been a quivering wreck :) I left feeling I had achieved something and someone had listened to me and what I needed.
People are starting to notice my shape changing and my confidence. At first I still wanted to hide behind my big clothes and keep quiet but I don't seem to anymore. Its a good feeling.
I am feeling really focused and determined. I WILL DO THIS!
I am adding this on the end as this week is all about lessons learnt. A couple of weeks ago i bought a Greggs sausage roll. I took one bite and all I could taste was grease and seriously could not eat it.
Well today we've been busy all afternoon so had fish and chips. I had fish cake and chips. Again all I could taste was grease but they werent that greasy. I ate some and stopped, as it was just too much of a greasy taste. I was physically sick within 5 mins of eating it and now feel awful, my mouth feels and tastes likes I've chewed a block of lard... horrible, but OMG go slimpod!
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