What was she like?
Well she didn't accept just how big she was. She refused to buy anything bigger than a 22 so she always wore black stretchy pull on slacks (that were so tight they fitted like leggings) and big baggy tops. You would have thought that the fact there were actually only one pair of size 20 type trousers that fit her would make her realise she wasn't a size 20-22 wouldn't you, but no she lived in denial and wondered why no shops clothes fitted her!! A month into slimpod she couldn't understand why the size 20 jeans she'd bought didn't fit. She looked up her measurements on various stores to find actually she was in a fact a large size 26 nearer to a 28 squeezing into stretchy size 20-22! So no wonder it took a long time to reach her first goal as she didn't have half a size to drop but several!!!
She had no confidence. Hated going out. Had a huge Jackie book of excuses for any occassion to ensure she didn't have to. Working at home made it easy. She had no energy, was totally allergic to exercise in fact alwas joked with friends that she was allergic to it. She ate massive portions. She inhaled her food. She didn't have a full signal she was a binge eater you see. Getting comfort from feeling so full :( She thought of food all day. It was always on her mind. Dieting didn't work for her as the minute a food was banned or had to be synned etc it became irresistable. She weighed at least twice a day. Just incase she'd lost a sneeky pound. Chocolate was her friend. Eating 6 or more bars at a time. If it was 3 for a £1 she'd buy 6 or 9.... eating them one after the other and hiding the wrappers. She'd still eat her meals as thats what one did at meal times. She was always eating. Believed she was destined to be fat forever really as its in her genes isn't it? Big boned. Had 3 kids. You name it.
She hated herself. She treated herself with food, consoled herself with food, food was everything. She suffered badly with asthma, out of puff just walking up the stairs, sore skin where it over hung. She was totally unfit. She was out of puff, no energy to do anything with the kids. I mean getting out of the chair was an effort! Walking the dog was stand in the park and throw the ball or wander round at snails pace.
She was a stress head. Always wound up. Always had a short fuse. So negative. Everything was negative. Nothing was ever right.
Whats new Jackie like?
Shes got a 'real smile'. Shes lost more or less all her chins. Shes now a comfortable size 18 heading for a size 16 for the first time since her eldest was a baby (hes nearly 21)! Shes got confidence! She exercises regularly. Shes no longer a dustbin, she can eat when hungry and stop when full. Shes not binged for 14 months now. She makes healthy choices 90% of the time because she wants to rather than feels she should. No foods are banned. Most days she doesn't think about food until her tummy rumbles! Yes its remembered what hunger feels like. It tells her when hungry! She tries new foods each week. She has energy. Shes positive. Shes calm. She exercises regularly. Shes lost count of how many inches shes lost but her tummy was 58inches its now 43inches. Her waist was about 47 ish its now 38.
She feels alive. She even likes herself now. She realises its inevitable she'll reach her goal of a size 12/14. Shes faced many demons head on. Made little changes. Remember each little step soon adds up and makes a bigger one :)
Anything is possible. There is no failure only feedback. Anything more than nothing. Every movement is exercise. Thinking slimmer becoming slimmer. Nothing needs to be easy just possible.
Her favourite slimpod sayings :)
My journey hasn't been fast but its been life changing. There is no quick fix but there is a permanent one. I can't tell you how glad I am that I never gave up. I face each issue as it arises. If I can't deal with it on my own I ask for help. I then move on. Thats what its all about isn't it? Succeeding. Moving on. Making lifestyle changes.
And I have achieved all this simply by listening to slimpod. I do not follow and never ever plan to follow any diet plan :)
So if you feel like giving up think again. Ask yourself what that was all about... Pick yourself up and dust yourself down and just keep going. We all have different days. I still do. But thats what they are different days. I leave them where they belong, in the past, and move on to the next brand new bright sun shiney day :)
I've never felt happier. I've never felt more confident. Yep I get low days but there is always someone there to pick me up, remind me how far I have come, and to show me theres a light at the end of that tunnel.
Believe in yourself and anything is possible !
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